Even though my "organizational" goals are pretty humdrum, they do seem to be a humdrum that is common to most people. Therefore, they may be worth discussing a bit.
Goal #1 for 2011:
"To get back to my Weight Watchers goal weight and maintain it - I am 10 lbs over right now (yikes!)."
My journey with Weight Watchers has been humbling for me. After having four children in 6 1/2 years - all in my 30s, I might add - I was putting on some "mom weight". I was not overweight - still within WW guidelines for a healthy weight for my height (just barely, though). So, I joined WW in April of 2008, and was very gung ho. The weight just dropped off. I threw myself into it. I had had gestational diabetes with three of my pregnancies, so I was familiar with planning meals, counting starches, fats, etc. Weight Watchers is MUCH less restrictive than the diabetes diet I was on. My goal was to get to 140. I was at 152. Not a huge loss, but honestly, I did not think I could do it.
I really, really, really like to eat.
Anyway, I started losing and just kept going. I got down to - get this - 125. A skinny size 6. And boy, did I feel good about myself!
I maintained that for about a year, and then suddenly....well, I am not going to go into a lot of detail, but let's just say the changing hormone age hit me early and with a vengenance. And in one month I gained 5 lbs. THAT is discouraging! The next month I gained a few more. Then I reached the "what's the use!" stage and practiced the program sort of half-heartedly for the next year. I eat basically healthy, I usually track what I eat, etc., etc. But I quit going to the meetings. I know my portion sizes started creeping up again, and the ability to only have one cookie seemed to evaporate.
So right now, I am 11 lbs over goal - almost back where I started. I feel differently now, though, than I did three years ago. In 2008 I felt FAT. I felt dumpy, and dull. I don't feel that way now. I'd still definitely like to get back to my goal of 140, but I do not want to get back down to 125 again. I gave away all my 6's and told my friends that if I ever get that thin again it will be due to a wasting disease and I am just going to wear sweats in that situation! But basically, I feel good about myself. I know I've blogged before about turning 45, aging gracefully, and all that, so I am not going there again. My main focus is to get back to eating healthier. Now, by "healthier" I go with the idea of being "healthy enough". I get my daily requirements of fruits and veggies, protein, dairy and healthy oils. I take my vitamin supplement. I try to eat my daily requirements before I eat goodies. And I am limiting my sweets and fried foods. But I am limiting them - not eliminating them. That is one of the reasons I like WW so much - nothing is forbidden, but you have to think about the point value of say, a biscuit as compared to...well, just about anything else! Think about whether to have seconds on country fried steak. Balancing out each day. Be aware of portion sizes. Eat when I am hungry, not just because something is there.
It is harder now than even a couple years ago. And since I had my children "late" we are still in the kid stage - lots of activities that involve going out. We also really enjoying fellowshipping with others, and that always seems to include a meal. I won't give that up. I want to enjoy eating, and enjoy fellowshipping, and I refuse to be one of those people who picks apart all the food at a potluck. And, if I go to the WW meetings, and stick with the program, little by little I will get back to my goal weight. But the focus is on being "healthy enough" - not obsessing over my food, my weight, my size - getting enough exercise, being active, being able to work and play and serve and enjoy life. That doesn't seem like it should be too hard!